8 Months on Testosterone. Transition related updates.
I’ll forever be grateful :)
It has been a stressful last week, with a lot of family issues going on. I’ve also been helping my best friends out as they are dealing with some things as well. I have been glad to help them out as I enjoy spending time with them and their two little ones and it also it has been a good distraction for me and staying busy has proven to be what I needed lately.
So with being so busy, I completely forgot that tomorrow is my official eight months on testosterone. I had gotten mixed up on weeks at some point during my transition, probably due to lack of video updates around the time and recovery time after my hysto, but am back on track as of tomorrow as it is eight months for sure. So, as I have the time today and tomorrow is just completely booked almost so far, I’ve decided I’ll be making a short update video in a little bit, and I’ll just post it here when I’m done. I’ll include a link to my youtube channel as well so you can see my transition videos in between. Although, there’s probably more of a drastic difference if you just watch the pre-testosterone video and then eight months, ha.
I have therapy this afternoon, which is always a relief. Tomorrow will be the support group for trans guys ran by my therapist, and then another group therapy later in the day. Anyway, will post the video in a little bit.
I’ve decided to post them sporatically, but if you’re more interested you can probably find me my youtube channel by clicking through to the first video I’d made that I just posted. I have come a LONG way, in so many aspects, physical and emotional. I can honestly say that I am proud of myself, which also to be honest, I never though I’d be at a place in life where I could say that and mean it.
Just a reminder, if you have even $1 to spare, or know someone who might be interested in donating, and could either pass this link along or post this on your site, I would FOREVER be grateful :)
This site offers “perks” for different levels of donations.
There’s also an apparel site I created with custom designed tshirts/hoodies/totes that I get a certain amount of proceeds from. The designs are LGBTQ friendly, with a particular emphasis on trans, and some are just inspiring/cool.
i have been doing my best and trying my hardest to remain healthy and positive mentally and emotionally since being so sick. i only slept 3-4 hours last night, though, because i was in so much pain it took me forever to get to sleep and i kept waking up from the pain. i have come to realize over the years of figuring myself out and how to stay healthy that sleep is a HUGE deal in the role of that. so as tired as i now am today, i am trying my best to stay awake all day today so that hopefully i’ll be tired enough to sleep tonight despite the pain.
i know i said in my first post that i would upload some of my transition videos, and i will try to get to that still this weekend.
i’m spending time with my mom today while my dad is out of town. i’m trying to conserve energy today because tomorrow i have plans to go to church in the morning, (my mom is coming for the first time there with me!), and then go to a friend’s house after service with a group of people that want to help in planning a benefit music/drag performance show in the next couple months to try and raise some money for my surgery. i am so, so grateful that they offered and are taking the time out of their day to come share a meal and help brainstorm with me. the support of the people in my life right now is definitely what’s getting me through this. as well as my faith and God. i know that God and the universe will help me figure out how to get the money for this surgery as soon as possible.
while i wasn’t sleeping last night, i applied online at three local credit unions for loans that would cover a part of the surgery amount. i’m hoping to hear the results this week. due to unfortunate circumstances, i don’t have the best credit right now, so i know the odds are against me, but anything would help at this point. i’ve been and plan on continuing to keep praying on it.
well, i guess that’s all for now. maybe i’ll try to update tonight. i’m looking forward to my girlfriend getting off work so we can go home and do some cleaning and cook dinner together.
This blog will detail my transition (I identify as transgender, FTM) and try and spread awareness about being transgender. I will probably tomorrow start off by posting my transition so far in videos.